I am a woman of strength and faith and this is my S.M.I.L.E. Story
March 2015 when I had my heart broken by a man whom I loved dearly. We're already 6 years together and with just a snap of a finger, everything changed. He confessed that he has been unfaithful to me.
At that moment, everything stopped.
I am dumbfounded and left thinking. Thoughts of him and what could’ve happened in our relationship haunt me. I felt betrayed. Well in fact, I was. I was betrayed by the man whom I thought I’d be spending the rest of my life with. I hardly slept because when I close my eyes he was still there. I had a dream twice that he was hugging me and assuring me that everything will be fine, that everything was a joke. Obviously, I was in the denial stage.
Days of crying, thinking and crying again have passed. I told myself that this should not be happening. Believe it or not, even though I am still hurting I told myself that these are just temporary and it’s not the end of the world.
Looking back at what happened, it made me realized how blessed and loved I am. I realized the importance of the support system that I have especially my FAMILY and FRIENDS.
The day when my ex and I broke up, my mama and anti treated me to a spa and dinner. They gave me endless advices and made me feel loved. Because of them, I felt I am not alone and that I can surpass this downfall. I remember how my mom’s always supportive that she loves the people I love, including my ex. She treated him like his own child and I have seen how hurt and disappointed she also was.
The following day my bestfriend came. She resides in Quezon city and travelled to our province the time I told her what happened. That day, we went shopping and unwind.
My co-workers also supported me, tried to make me feel better, told me breakup stories and how these things were normal. Indeed, experience is the best teacher. One of our bosses told me that if we were really for each other, destiny will find a way and everything happens for a reason.
"Imagine that the universe conspires not to hurt you, but to free you."
Sometimes, we really have to hit rock bottom to find our way again. Because of these hard situations, we learned how to be brave. I learned that nothing in this world is permanent. Anything or anyone can change or be lost at the blink of an eye.
I pushed myself to get back on track. I constantly remind myself that I am enough and no one can ever make me feel less special.
" Don't cry for the man who's left you; the next one may fall for your smile."
Life indeed is a crazy adventure. At present, I already have a significant other. (hopefully he is the one) I always remind myself to wear that smile for my family, the people who loved me and especially for myself.
