Could it be we always move between various realities all the time but doesn't feel like that because we experience each and every shift as one continuous journey?
So maybe reality is a series of our own choices, some we're aware of but the rest we have little to no awareness of. Could it be we choose our own path and with that choice actively choose to be unaware of it? That could be why we're often left not knowing why reality is the way it is and why we end up feeling we have no agency but are simply victims of circumstance beyond our control.
But what if we're not victims but active participants? Then the questions we should ask are: why choose to be unaware of our own choices? What's the payoff for us?
Most of the time, we don't want to be aware of what makes us feel bad. So, in other words, we don't want to know about what brings us feelings of pain. So awareness itself doesn't cause this pain, that pain already exists in us and our awareness simply draws our attention to it. So to avoid pain we choose to be unaware.
For many of us, like myself, we sit in uncomfortable positions all day looking at computers screens. To do that we have to purposely numb ourselves from the physical discomfort. In other words we can actively become unaware to our own physical pain. It follows too we can do the same with emotional pain.
Could it be that we are actively numbing ourselves to our emotional pain and by doing that we simultaneously create all the conditions needed to experience that pain to its full extent?
Why? Perhaps the purpose of reality is precisely what it says on face value - to be real.
So that means we choose not to be real and our reality reflects exactly that realness back to us. Maybe that's exactly what we need to help us feel real, especially if we're a bit on the stubborn side, like I am. Could it be anymore straightforward? It's reality after all.
If all that's true, it follows the most direct way to have full agency over our reality is to simply allow ourselves to be fully real. That means to do that we have to fully feel...
