So sorry you had to go through all of this- nobody deserves it, Bullying is terrible and by a parent even worse -I hope you know now you matter and even though you would have loved your dad to be proud of you, it is more important that you are proud of yourself for all you have achieved. Treasure the good days and do not let the bad thoughts get you down or feed it, One day at a time and concentrate on the things that make you feel good - Well done for coming so far and keep on going,