By nature, I was always closed and timid. Back at school I had problems because of this, not only in communicating with classmates, but also in class. Even when I knew the answer, it was difficult for me to answer before the whole class.
Little contact with my friends, I spent a lot of time reading and preparing for the exams, which helped to successfully finish the university in the future. After studying, I got a job in a joint US-Ukrainian venture.
I really wanted to overcome my isolation and communicate normally in a working collective, to become my own in it. But I chose the wrong way for this, and I want to talk about it here. The reason for my departure from work, I could not tell even my parents, and my close friends, as I said before, I do not.
Soon, in honor of the anniversary of the founding of the company, we had a reception. I, who had never tried alcohol, were ashamed to refuse the offered champagne, and after the first glass I felt more confident. After drinking more, I was happy in the company of colleagues, I could communicate freely, even said a toast.
But after drinking a glass of brandy on the brotherhood, I no longer remembered anything. I woke up in the morning and could not remember how I came home. Parents said that I was brought by a car, which the director singled out, since I simply could not go on my own.
I did not know how to go to work now, I was very ashamed. But in the office my colleagues reacted with understanding, and nobody was going to dismiss me. But the head of the department said that, on the orders of the chief, I can not be assigned responsible work, because I do not know how to control myself.
I worked for a while, but I did the simplest job, I was demoted. And I had to resign myself. Now I'm out of work, I can not overcome the fear of a new collective. I signed up for an appointment with a psychologist, because I can not cope with my problems. I hope that this will help, I do not see any other way out.
