Fucken hell listening or reading this post seems like there is no point into doing anything.

No hate here just an observation of the bleak existence your painting and how there really is nothing left that can be done towards anything worthwhile. Even more bleak is the fact you day the Chinese Communist Party is not a communist party and is just an authoritarian form of government. Pretty bleak idea especially when it's not even considered a spade when they themselves call themselves a spade.