I have fears just like every other human beings, sometimes I have fears more than all other human beings I know. I try to avoid it and put up a straight face about it but it really never works. I try to act strong and as though I have it all figured out but the fun part of it is that I was simply postponing my evil days.
I don't talk to people about anything because the last thing I want is someone who know nothing about what I have been through to start judging the information I let out or perhaps what they perceive about me.
I am always careful about how much trash talks I attract. One day I was walking down the road with my friend and a guy greeted both of us, I answered jovially and he said
"Why do you look like you have no problem and intimidate other people with it"
I, ofcourse didn't know what to say about that, I was partly happy that I sent that confident a message to people who don't even know my name but a part of me was worried that I might not get the help I needed because I didn't look like I needed.
I found myself in what I would call a dump. Though on a norm, I am a very happy person like I tease, I joke, I play rough like fake fights and all but in the end it doesn't change the fact that I don't have my moments.
Now what do I do?
In Season 1 episode 8 of One Tree Hill, Hailey James wrote a note to Nathan Scott when she started tutoring him
"Believing you will do well is half the battle, call me if you need anything"
Now that is how I deal with it together with
"A problem shared is half solved"
Now imagine a whole problem where one part is solved by sharing it and the other is solved by belief. That's what I am talking about, no problem would be solved by sticking it and stacking it in box of don't touch. You have to put it out and address it either actively or passively.
With all this in place, I achieve a sincerely happy me with everything figured out and then a problem conquered before becoming epidermic.
Heart Confessions is a way of expressing unfiltered confessions with or without anonymity and also sharing your restitution process.
Remember it is not a heart confession if you are still comfortable doing it and not ready to let go.
