Honestly, I am a loser in real life. I have big dreams and that's just about it. I lack the motivation to do anything even what I love the most. I am lazy af. I can't get up early, can't sleep early, waste my whole day scrolling pages of every social media app, watching content on youtube for hours at length and gaining nothing. I am what you can call a 'consumer of media'. I get impressed very easily, I lack the ability to even formulate my own opinion about anything at all. Information just goes into the few cubic centimetres of my skull and never gets processed because I am too lazy to do it. Even this 'few cubic centimetres' is not my own I stole it from George Orwell's 1984. Self-discipline is a word alien to me. Everyday is a day wasted for me. I am a wreckage.

So, as you can see it's a pretty big list and I can still mention some more things here. But deep inside there is still an urge to change myself and I hope that I can harness that into my reality one day.