Imagine you are trying to see something important but your eyes refuse to see what is. They give you all sort of different scenarios but none of them are. You know what's outside because you've seen it before, and you trust that. You sometimes trust other's people's eyes (and hearts), because you already know your eyes can fail. You look for different ways to remind yourself how reality actually looks like.
But nothing changes the fact that a part of you refuses to see what's real. You would probably go to the doctor, right?
Can you imagine? You just know this is an apple. But all you see is a pineapple. In fact, what if other senses get involved in this nonsense? You taste pineapple, feel pineapple, smell it, see it. But shts not real. Because it is actually a freaking apple. How can you ever trust yourself? If you are so damn confused about just an apple. (Or was it pineapple?)
“You see, you closed your eyes. That was the difference. Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too--even when you're in the dark. Even when you're falling.” - Mitch Albom,Tuesdays with Morrie
Depression taught me about faith. Because I had to understand that things outside were okay. Even if I couldn't see it. To know the sky is blue while I see it red. To know which way is up, but my head prefers upside-down.
Faith is needed when gaps between worlds are too wide. It doesn't always lack of reason. Sometimes faith has eyes where reason fails to see.
Don't be a fool, for reason has its own way to fool you. You think you have all the answers but truth is, you can't even see half of the reality. How do you expect to know through reason?
You expect to know through faith. I read somewhere that, when you encounter the truth somewhere, everything fits in its place, including yourself. I understand the feeling and yet, I would never put this reality over anyone elses.
But still. So very often I just close my eyes and take the leap. I do this for people, for new experiences, new lessons, adventures, and for myself.
I take the leap for the sake of truth.
I take the leap for the sake of love.
