Love the picture at the top of the page.

Around other people, I do my best to exude positivity and show my happy face.

I just don't understand how complaining makes anything better. As you say, maybe I developed this posture as a survival mechanism.

Sorry about the arm!! I never heard of apis. Just looked it up--closest I come to that is Manuka honey and clover honey. Bought these two types of honey a few months ago to help heal a shingles rash. They worked. Saw significant difference once I started using them. Sticky though :))