Steemit Openmic Week 74 - Original, Knew Better

Everyone always asks me what my process for writing music is..... and I always say "it depends on the day". This is the truest thing ever, because I usually never write the same on a given day, but I have a few steps I do stick to for the most part.

Numer One:
I skim through old lyrics.

• I have soooo many lyrics written down in my phone, and before I write I usually skim through them to see if any of them are usable.

Number Two:
I hardly EVER write a song without an instrument in-front of me.

• (I did write a song in my car on the way to the studio the other day though haha). It helps me to write with a piano or guitar, messing around with different chord progressions to see what direction I'd like to take the song.

Number Three:
I love to listen to music before I write.

• This really sets the mood for me. I'll pick a few of my favorite artists, such as K.Flay, Lord, Halsey, or Donna Missal. Artists with reeeeeally good lyrics to get my mind thinking.

Number Four:
I fight myself on my perfectionism.

• Guys this will KILL your music and I've struggled with it for a very long time. Before I sit down to write, I tell myself "Whatever you write today is good enough and it DOESN'T have to be perfect". This has made a huge difference for me when I write. I used to be so obsseed with writing a "Hit" song or hoping that others wouldl like it. Now I mostly focus on if I like it and loving whatever I create. Creativitly cannot like in negativity.

I hope you guys enjoy this song, because I've loved writing it SO much. It's my boyfriends favorite song that I've written to this day. I'd talk more about it, but I want you guys to listen to the song and tell me what YOU think about it.

Love you all so so so soooo much.

xoxo, Addie

I drew lipstick on your pillow case
To make sure that I won the race
Who could sabotage each other’s peace

A year ago I woulda felt so cold
Next to you I nearly froze in place

But, God damn it’s hard to see ya
You know I wanted to believe ya

When ya said that we were shock proof to the world

Chorus
It hit me harder
When you said you would call
I knew much better
Than to want you at all
But now I’m runnin my mouth with no way out feelin so small
I knew much better
I knew much better

Stormy feelings what a salty taste
Left in my mouth oh what a mistake
All this cloudy judgment in here
How was I supposed to feel

When you said it was my body
Keeping you alive
Too bad ya didn't want me
When it was just my mind

Chorus
It hit me harder
When you said you would call
I knew much better
Than to want you at all
But now I’m runnin my mouth with no way out feelin so small
I knew much better
I knew much better

Wanted to be your only one
Look at me now with this loaded gun
Bullets shot on an empty stage
I was too afraid to face

Lies up in my head now
keepin me awake
Things that I have to tell myself
Cause you could only take

Chorus
It hit me harder
When you said you would call
I knew much better
Than to want you at all
But now I’m runnin my mouth with no way out feelin so small
I knew much better
I knew much better

BRIDGE
I touched down to see your face
It was as lonely as this place
I’ve called home for too damn long
But I can’t seem to shake the shame
But I know that you've moved
And don’t wanna a thing to do with me
Except to watch me bleed

Chorus
It hit me harder
When you said you would call
I knew much better
Than to want you at all
But now I’m runnin my mouth with no way out feelin so small
I knew much better
I knew much better