There are many things that help me relax, for example, being in contact with nature is vital for me, watching a movie where there is snow relaxes me, listening to instrumental music, especially piano, represents a mental balm but one of the things I enjoy most is to be in my room without noise or distractions to think, meditate and rest.
I don't usually fall asleep easily. Lately it has been a process whereby it takes several stages. What I have done is to strive to enjoy each stage. First I set up my room and one thing I love to do is hug my pillow. I can't sleep without hugging my pillow. Since it takes me a while to fall asleep, I start thinking about the things I did during the day. It's normal to have days that are a little messy but I still think and reflect on what I could have done better or just allow myself to feel every emotion even if it's the sadness of a bad day.
It is not about remembering and torturing myself for something bad that has happened to me, but rather it is about letting it flow like streams of water until it disappears because the more I resist it the more it hurts me, so it is a time to vomit all the bad things in a natural way. Of course, there are wonderful days and these evoke other emotions when I get to rest and of course, with much more reason I allow every feeling, sensation or beautiful memory that day has given me to disembark in my mind.
There is nothing more pleasant than having my space to be me, without filters, without fake smiles, with genuine tears, with beautiful thoughts, with sincere joys. Those moments are moments of freedom, I am with me and I love doing it. This allows me to know myself much more, to increase my self-esteem and to remember that I am human, I feel, I look, I get angry, I rejoice, I know joy and also frustration. That's good, in my refuge there is room to be myself and the result is a real renewal to continue with integrity in this adventure called life.
All photos are my own, taken with a Realme 7i.
