I’ve never been a shy person, especially on virtual platforms but when I joined hive, that changed. I wasn’t just shy; I also became scared. This is something I’ve never shared with anyone: I really wanted to paint a perfect picture of myself. I remember reading my comments over 5 times before pressing publish. I will also never forget how loud my heart would always beat anytime I had to press publish on my posts.
The other part was my hive goals. If you’ve been following me for a while, you’d realize I’ve never published any Hive goals before. Not that I wasn’t setting them. I was. I remember spending a whole hour somewhere last January to write about my hive goals and just being shy. I mean, I know of SMART and trust me, I made sure to make them as realistic as possible, but I was still shy.
I remember asking myself, "What do you mean you want to reach 5000HP in less than two years?" "CAN YOU BE SERIOUS? and realistic". Well, I actually forgive myself for that all-of-a-sudden low self-esteem I was building from nowhere.
After some months, I began to see that I was so wrong for thinking I had to be perfect. I began realizing that the blockchain wasn’t even for perfect people. The main thing that made me drop that be-a-perfect-person on hive mentality was reading many posts. I would occasionally read that people didn’t even understand certain words they used in their posts and weren’t shy to admit it. So you mean I don’t have to write my posts with an Oxford dictionary?
I would see some spelling and grammar mistakes in some posts and still see so many people engaging on that same post. Oh wow! I really didn’t have to be all Shakespeare here? So I started being myself. I would write exactly like I’m talking. And it became very easy. The shyness vanished. The fear, gone.
And somehow, I started building my HP. My goal became very realistic to me. I eventually reached 3000HP in 10 months and that confirmed that I could actually reach 5000HP before my 24th month.
At one point, I wanted to establish a real connection on Hive through something tangible and memorable. So I remember using some of my rewards to buy my mom a new phone and joining hands with a charity foundation to make a donation to an orphanage. And now, each time I log in to my account, there's a mental replay of my mom's smiles and that of the kids at the orphanage, which makes my heart really warm.
Oh boy. I didn’t think this post would be this long. Anyway, it took longer than expected but it still happened before my 24th month on this amazing blockchain and the coolest part? It happened on my birthday! July 31. And to summarize it all, this has been the best birthday ever! My cheeks literally hurt from smiling all through yesterday.
I can’t end this post without thanking all the people who have been supporting me. The friends and family I’ve made on this blockchain. Thank you all so much. I’m so grateful to have you all. I'm also happy for the kind of impact this blockchain has had on me. I think I’ve grown in so many ways in the past months with the help of Hive more than I could have done on my own.
My Favorite thing about myself now is how open minded I am and the way I always see things from different points of view. All thanks to the beautiful exposure I have on Hive.
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