Actually I see that you went through my whole post and this is my big achievement today I got a reader.
Secondly yeah all this talk was with me and about me. And for a person who left me after doing very well behavior with me doing favors on me always. That dialogue was for every new person;
That do me favor, don't do me any favor.
It means that don't make me again like that I was before and doing nothing myself.
Once again thank you for going through the post and your comment. Thank you for finding my writing full with depth.