wow just now seeing this post and having a moment to read this in its entirety! thank you so much for sharing your story!! i love the thorough way you told it with the beautiful artistic images on the side. i can totally relate to being a tomboy, all the freedom and welcome in the "boys circles" and athletics and then the awkward onset of the changing body that then sets you apart!
what a heavy experience for a young one to endure! that question of what to do when someone reveals suicide desire is one that i have grappled with too. my friend swallowed pills once in a mission to die and i didn't know what to do so i called the hospital and then she had a huge bill to pay for and was upset at me... it's def a question to grapple with, reflect on and talk about... i've also had a couple friends who "successfully" committed suicide by conscious choice... and well, so many of our lives changed after that. it's a huge decision, and one that someone should be supported in processing while they're alive. there's obviously a huge stigma and a lot of pain surrounding it (for all involved)... but ultimately i believe it's that person's choice. there is a budding suicide prevention group growing on the blockchain and i can invite you to the discord if you want!
as for separating you from your aunt during so much formation for you... that's brutal!! it's crazy to me how parents shut their kids off from positive forces in their kids lives because of stuff like this... finding self identity in gender and sexuality is tough and soooo many teens feel isolated or like they have to hide! i didn't know anyone who was not heteronormative until i got into college (went to christian high school/etc and was pretty sheltered) ... what a journey it's been!! look forward to hearing more of your journey-- thanks again for the sharing :) <3
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