Looking back.

Where to look back this time? What else to look back this time?
I am sitting in front of my laptop during rest hour in my office. It has been too busy lately and today I have a little bit of time to spare but I have no idea on what to write about. I once dream of become a writer live with the earning from online career so I, can spend more time at home. I will have a working hour that I want, not bound to any rules and free to do as I like. A freedom in working and earning. Perhaps that would be a less stressful job.

I have like writing poetry and songs lyrics since primary school. I once write an anime kind of script, poetry and songs. I have lost a few of the song I wrote but I also have written a new one, a few of them. This time I post it to my You Tube channel so I would not lose it again.

Poetry
During secondary school(form 3) to be specific. A male friend give me a book of poetry before he got sick and then he passed away. We are not couple. We are just good friend.

songs and lyrics
A friend told me recently that I had become her inspiration to write songs since I last wrote a song for the school visit to a Mangrove Forest. I barely remember the songs now but she still do and now she have written her own song together with her siblings and join a competition at YouTube online. I am very happy for her and I am happy that I have been an inspiration to at least one person in this world.

If you do not mind. Do give them a visit at YouTube Channel. Listen to the whole song, give a like and subscribe to the channel to help them win. The song is in Malay Language and I will help giving the translation here to help you understand.

Lyric translated with the help of google translator.

Color Your Life by Couspira Begons

When you thought that life is hard
Ask yourself why is it so difficult?
When you thought that life is hard
Ask yourself why is it so difficult?
Maybe you feel like someone else's life
Are better than the one you have
Maybe you thought as if it is unnecessary
Like life has no meaning

Trust me, everyone feels the same
Squeezed in the joys and sorrows of life
There must be something we really want
But we can't afford to have it
But if we are sad about this
It will continue to steal away our happiness

Let it all go dear friend let it go
Just follow the flow to where it goes
Look at what you have now
Start coloring your life with it

Learn to be grateful for all the sustenance
No matter how small it is in your life

You must find your smile in your wholeheartedly acceptance
Which you probably never realized all this time
That's what you need and you'll find it
Your happiness in them
When you accepted their lack
If you accepted us as we are

Let it all go dear friend let it go
Just follow the flow to where it goes
Look at what you have now
Start coloring your life with it
Let it all go dear friend let it go
Just follow the flow to where it goes
Look at what you have now
Start coloring your life with it

Learn to be grateful for all the sustenance
No matter how small in your life

Looking forward.

Nothing that I wish for since childhood has become a reality(This is not true). It might not as I imagine it to be but then I am now writing a blog and I earn a bit from it as an extra coverage for my income. I can write anything that I want with minimum set of rules. I still write songs for fun and I enjoy it.

The only thing I want now is to have a happy life. I am done feeling miserable and tired of fulfilling others dreams. It is my new goal though I cannot totally remove my responsibilities form the goal. I am looking forward to a brand new beginning that have been given to me by all of my dears friend. I wish to keep on writing here and there so that they and myself will know my progression. I guess this will be a great story for my daughter read later so I would not be breathless telling her the story of my life.(Hahaha)