I live naked and barefooted, very close to Earth and Nature, in an 18-acre, off-grid, clothing-optional, food-forest intentional community (GaiaYoga Gardens), way out in the jungles of Lower Puna, far East Big Island, Hawai'i, and I have for more than 5 years now. Although there are many challenges, I love my life, and I'm immensely grateful to live where and how I do, on my own terms! I would not want to live any other way! 😁🙏💚⚡💥🔥✴️✳️❇️👣🌱✨🤙
Warm greetings all! 😁🙏💚✨🤙
For the past few days I've felt more shut down and withdrawn, again, and with that my experiences with people, and here in my jungle community, have also been far less interesting, so I've been mostly keeping to myself. This was the first day in a fair while where I didn't have inspiration about what to write, which shows me pretty clearly that my energy, and therefor my creativity, is stagnating again, due to giving into my trigger reactions, closing my heart, and withdrawing from human connection. Not great, but at least I'm able to see it, and I feel my internal discontent and frustration around it, which gives me impetus to change it.
Healing and awakening, despite how it's sometimes portrayed, is not usually an easy process, and our triggers, that are connected to the pain that we experience around certain often very limiting perspectives that we hold about ourselves, will keep coming up in our lives until we actually face and heal them, and learn the lessons they have for us. To say that this can be a challenging endeavor is a huge understatement.
Our minds, the incredible tools that they are, are indeed very powerful, and depending on how we use them, we can create heaven or hell in our lives. I know this very well from voluminous personal experience. Very small shifts in my perspective about myself, and what's possible for me, have utterly transformed my life, and many times over. With the beliefs and perspectives that we consciously or unconsciously choose to entertain, we have the ability to both enslave or liberate ourselves. The choice truly is always ours, even if we are not aware of that fact.
The perspectives and the beliefs that we hold set the parameters of what we will allow ourselves to experience in our lives, for better or worse. In truth we ourselves are our own jailors, that always hold the key to our freedom in our hands, whether we ever use it or not. How do I know this, and yet still choose to sit in my jail cell, alone and stagnant, while I long for true liberation, empowerment, and connection? That is the question that is so poignantly present in my mind this morning, and to which I don't yet have an answer.
Yesterday, being Monday, was a rather busy day, with two meetings that I attended, the Leadership Council meeting that went from 1PM to just after 3PM, and the community Logistics meeting from 6:30PM to 8:30PM, making my superfood fire coffee, straining out and blending kefir, as well as spending a fair amount of time repairing and making ethernet cables for a few people here that had asked for them. That was the majority of my day. Because I attended the Logistics meeting, I wasn't able to get to my evening Hive tasks and catching up on notifications until almost 9PM. Because I started so late, I was only able to get to within 10 hours of being fully caught up. I ended up going to bed much later than I had wanted, around 1:15AM, after a short round of token management. Very thankfully I did sleep well, waking up and beginning a round of token management on Hive around 7:30AM, then getting out of bed to go make my superfood fire coffee, and to finish taking the rest of the photos for this post (that I couldn't do yesterday due to non-ideal light conditions).
It's now just after 10:45AM, so a good time to end this post, so that I can get to a few important Hive tasks, and then prepare for my session with Sara at 1PM. I deeply appreciate you all so very much! Until tomorrow! Forward, onward, and upward, joyfully together! 😁🙏💚✨🤙
2024 Life Goals
1.) Heal my broken heart, reignite my heart sun, and embody a solid, healthy masculine, allowing my electric fire to shine bright, no matter what others, especially women, say or do.
2.) Bring myself and my life back into balance, integration, and wholeness.
3.) Do regular (naked) integral practices again, alone or with others.
4.) Dance regularly again.
5.) Work with natural entheogens (mushrooms, ganja, ayahuasca), with punctuated regularity, as a part of my healing process again.
6.) Get, and keep, regular deep, integral energy-body-tantric work healing sessions for women flowing again.
7.) Prepare regular batches of my medicinal teas collected from the land again.
8.) Make my plant nursery beautiful again.
9.) Live as an integral part of a juicy heart-resonant soul tribe community, with deep, coherent mutual and shared passion, purpose, mission, love, warmth care, sweetness, reverence, respect, aliveness, admiration, excitement, enjoyment, playfulness, work, fun, laughter, attraction, and all-level connections and relationships.
10.) Make love with the woman, or the women, that I love, every day, as a sacred devotional practice.
11.) Begin learning relevant coding/programming languages to more fully contribute to the sovereignty-driven technologies where I am active, like Arch Linux, Hive, Qortal, DeSo, and Bastyon.
All photos were taken with my Motorola G Play 2024 Android Phone.
Thank you all so much who have helped me get to where I am today, and allowing me to share more of the beauty and magic from my life and my world with you, and for your continuous appreciation and support! I am truly deeply grateful! 😁🙏💚✨🤙
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