Get shit done and Magical Thinking

A bit of rant, but then again this is my personal blog and I kind of do what I feel like doing, right?

The motivation behind this is quite simple. It can be a bit frustrating, at least for me, to see people who only plan things. Now, to clarify, planning is fine, but not doing much afterwards makes everything pointless.

I should say that I know I'm not a doer all the time, maybe nobody is, but I do plunge into projects and don't allow myself to only dream. Is it easy? of course not, sometimes my back hurts, sometimes I sit on the computer to watch one video and turns out I've lost three hours of the day, but what matters in the end, is that I still feel the need to show up.

I can only describe it as self betrayal. Which is to say that if I don't finish things, if I leave the idea of let's say "I want to have a forge and learn how to do it" as just an idea; I won't like myself too much.

In the end, all of us will disappoint a ton of people in our lifetime, but disappointing myself has always been the most painful experiences, and thus I don't want to live them anymore.

What I refer to magical thinking is how usually people say things like: "I would love to learn guitar"; and never doing a single thing about this supposed want. If you want to learn, you just do it, you borrow a guitar, you load up some tutorials and you go, you put in the thousands of hours if you have to, but you do it, because you "want" to do it, that is what you said, right?

You see, when people say "want" or "we should" they usually mean: "it would be nice" and "wouldn't it be cool" or a variation of those. It's a mental trick to not feel guilty about self betrayal.

Ex.

I wanted to learn guitar, but I never found the time

This "trick" removes the guilt from my heart. All of the sudden it's not my fault I never learned guitar, but life, the universe, those around me, the worked together to make sure I could never learn the darn thing. ITS NOT MY FAULT!