Adjusting Life

Adult Coloring.

Never start a post off with a negative sentence. If you do, no one will want to read your post. Yet, if you are not feeling well for months on end and finding happy ideas to post about are not at the forefront of your life, you can find yourself not posting anything.

If you are anything like me, my posts are a form of therapy and a diary of my life. Usually, I can find something positive to say, so coming up with an idea for a post has never been a problem. It is the physical writing of a blog post that lately tires me out just thinking about it. So I do not write one.

Summer Nights By Hanna Karlzon.

Two things have happened to me because I have not been writing as many Hive posts as usual. The first is I have become isolated without realizing it. My life is pretty isolating typically. Writing posts on Hive is a way for me to feel connected to other beautiful people. I miss that.

I also realized that I am still afraid to show my art. When I finally make a post about what I have been drawing, the post's writing doesn't come as easy as usual.

Over the past year, we have all found out that isolation is not suitable for your mental health. I became sick over ten years ago and learned this lesson the hard way. Why I talk to a therapist a few times a month, it helps. A lot. Though I will be the first to admit you have to find the right therapist for you. You also have to be ready, be honest with a therapist, or waste money and time. No one has time or money to spare.

Using a maker on the first page bleed through. I was happy that there was nothing on the back of the page but this little grouping of mushrooms.

I miss sharing what I am doing, my thoughts and feelings. It is also very healthy for me to write about how I am doing. It keeps me grounded.

There is a list of projects I want to get done this year. Some projects need to get done. Some of my projects are 'wants' to get done. One of the side effects of my health issues is I get overwhelmed very quickly. When crushed, my brain stops working, and I get nothing done. After weeks of getting nothing done, anxiety decides to come to pay a visit.

Once this horrible cycle starts, it is tough for me to stop it. It is sneaky. The process sneaks up on you when you least expect it. Before long, you do not see a way out. Writing posts help me see this horrible cycle easier.

With the conclusion that posting is a very healthy pastime for me, the question became what I can do to make writing a post easier? I already use the free version of Grammarly. I had signed up for it two days after starting to blog on the blockchain.

Under my warm soft blanket @Enginewitty sent me for Christmas I am quietly learning to shade using colored pencils. It is very relaxing and just what I needed.

The free version is good, more than adequate. It has helped me write every post for the last three years. I knew I wasn't writing correctly worded stories, but it was the best I could do. Doing your best is all you can ask of yourself.

Today I wanted to share the new adult coloring book I had received and started coloring. I took all the photos I needed to make a post and edited them. I opened Grammarly to begin writing. The feeling of being overwhelmed washed over me. I was sad. Sharing what gives me joy is something I love to do, yet once again, I was hitting a brick wall looking at a blank page.

I assessed my situation.

I clicked on the tab for Grammarly Premium to see how much it was. The monthly option was stupidly expensive. The quarterly option was a bit better in price. If you had the money, the yearly option was such a huge saving that I sat with my cursor over the yearly option weighing out the pros and cons.

In the end, the pros outweighed the cons, and I clicked. I am now the owner of a year's worth of Grammarly Premium. Writing this post is the first time I have used the full program. I have to be honest and say, for me, it is well worth the price. This post has been the most comfortable, grammar wise, I have ever written.

Do I think Grammarly Premium is a must for most people? No. If you know grammar and sentence structure, I think you are OK with the free version; if you are like me and have no clue about grammar and sentence structure, Grammarly Premium makes writing a lot easier, as this post has just proven.

As always time will show the truth. For now, I am very happy I took the leap.

Help someone smile today. It can not hurt you.


All photos are mine unless otherwise stated

Gif made by @Snook

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