Hello everyone, in my first post (@leooo18ilaa/am-i-a-lion) I have described myself in short
Text that is in front of you now is a short lookback - where I am coming from and why
It is the beginning of my journey that brought me here where I am now, In Turkey.
It all started when I was in Morocco.
Bullying, torturing, beating and all kind of mental health pressure… it was what I faced every week, day, and hour. I attempted suicide at that time I was 13 years old but lucky my sibling stopped me, I lived in fear for years. I wasn’t thinking of what was going to happen tomorrow or the next days I was just having the idea of completing my pain or suicide.
I wanted to die, every day I was always bullied at school and stoned.
I was beaten daily, and this affected me at an early age. My big brother, if he did not hit me, he would not rest at all. I was at a stage where there was no one beside me and no one supported me, and I needed someone to help me.
The world I belong to, was not to live in peace, I am a person who does not like problems and is peaceful. The idea of suicide took root in my mind then, so I tried to commit suicide a second time. I hung myself in the middle of the oath with a scarf, but my attempt failed. I fainted and I don't remember anything. I woke up to the professor and the principal called my family, after which I did not go to school for a month.
The older I get, the bigger the problems, and the more I receive threats of slaughter, and the first of them was my brother.
I ran away from the city in which I lived when I was seventeen years old and settled in a city twenty hours away from them by road. Then I found out that my family was looking for me to kill me, so I ran away from Morocco in general, and I currently live in Turkey.
I found inner peace while I was far from that society and the environment in which I was full of threats and torture.
Thank god, that my psychological condition is currently being treated and I do not think about the idea of suicide at all, because as long as one believes that his/her life if valuable, that there is some other option and that pain will lessen eventually.
You may be wondering why all this happened? What's the reason?
It’s because I’m gay.
And this post, it is the beginning of my journey on Hive :) I hope to find interesting texts here, learn from you and tell you about my experiences, share my knowledge and be accepted for who I am; after all, that is what every human being want.