Photo On Pexel by Miguel Laying on my bed I sighed, minutes or hours it must have been as I stayed there unmoving with my eyes transfixed on the ceiling. I don’t know what had gotten over me as today was different, my mind seems to be in denial of all thoughts today, chasing them off and leaving me knocking on a closed door with no answer. It was like staring at a wall and expecting it to open up at the sound of your voice.
“Why is the sky blue?” I asked, trying to lighten up the dark room in which I found myself in, awaiting my mind to come up with its smart mouth in response but all I got was nothing! plain blank, nada! It seems my mind had gone on an impromptu holiday without informing me and I am left all alone in solitude with no thoughts to keep my mind busy and no playful remarks to it.
This saddens my heart as my mind was the only true friend I have, it has always been by me through thick and thin, not giving up on me even when I chase it off sometimes. It has been my backbone for years and without it, I can’t stand it. It has been my mentor, lover, family, and friend when I had none. It is more than I can ever think of as it surprises me with its energy and its great vibe in facing challenges ahead leaving me in awe of its superiority.
“How did I get here?” I question no one in particular, why does my heart feel heavy and my mind blank today? I tried very hard to remember what could have happened to trigger this emptiness I feel but nothing came up. It was like I never lived the day, but here I am in a dark room, how come? I could still feel the sun that had touched my skin earlier but how come I don’t remember going out?
Crying out loud in agony, I screamed, how come I have forgotten all that happened today? The day hasn’t even ended but I can not seem to remember anything that had happened before, heck! I can’t even tell how I got to be on my bed and why I am not hungry.
“Did I eat something earlier?” I tried asking again but still, all I got was plain deafness. It was as if my mind had traveled far away to an unknown land with a broken connection. There was no static of me connecting to it and this shocked me.
Maybe I am dreaming, I thought, my mind shouldn’t have been as blank as this, for goodness sake my mind was like a bee, always busy planning mischief and lots of unimaginable things, how come it became this empty, like a void which cannot be found, the ache in my heart arose and I held it tightly as a silent tear drop fell off.
Holding my head tightly I plead to heaven to restore my mind to its buzzing life and fill the void that couldn’t be seen.
Heaven though, mocked me as my pleads seemed to have fallen into deaf ears after hours of waiting patiently, wishing this pain I feel ended and my sanity restored but I didn’t give up as I am a strong believer, with a great sigh I said my prayers and pushed my pillows closer as I close my eyes to slumber. Tomorrow is another day, maybe heaven may yield my pleas.
A miracle they say happens in different ways and the patient dog is said to eat the fattest bone and so refreshed I felt as the sun rose from the East and peeped into my room bringing in it light to my soul and thankfully my mind seem to have gotten back from it long trip as the first question it asked was, “Whose face are we dumping in the refuse today?” and I laughed out loud that the wall vibrated and the sound echoed around.
Still yours truly,
Balikis.
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Peace be unto those who crave it and more to those who chase it away
