Have You Ever Had One Of Those Days ..
Where you just don’t feel like writing anything? Maybe you have no clue what to write about? No inspiration pouring out of the pores? No majorly exciting things going on in life? Yup.. That’s me today. Not that I feel pressured to write everyday or even every other day, but I like to put some thoughts out there with some consistency. Today I just sort of feel blah and no worthwhile post ideas are coming to mind, so I’ll just write a few thoughts on what I am feeling at the present time.
The Weather..
The weather sucks. If it’s cold, I would rather it snow; The nice fluffy white kind you would find in the higher elevations. Well, we live close to the ocean and thus we rarely see the nice fluffy powdered snow. The snow we usually get is heavy and wet. Yesterday and today would be the perfect example of our winter storms; starting off as snow, turning to sleet, then mixing with rain, back to sleet, more rain, and finishing up with flurries. I thought to myself today, as the cold rain fell to my neck and rolled down my back, “This Sucks!”
Molly ..
Molly thought the same exact thing this morning. I let her out to go potty and she wouldn’t move. The grass was frozen with a few centimeters of ice, brought about by freezing rain last night. Under this was a thin layer or half melted and refrozen sleet. Maneuvering the frozen turf on paws the size of my thumbs, is treacherous for the poor girl. I had to sympathize with her. Needless to say, she peed and that was it. She was having no parts of trying to deposit a #2. Nope! She’ll just end up holding the Tootsie Roll sized turd in until later, or will drop it off on a piece of carpet we have in the kitchen for her. Not a big deal. If it's still frozen when I get home later, I’ll hook up a hose to the hot water and melt an area for her.. Yes, I do those silly things for my pup.
Pepper Memories ..
Pepper has been pretty heavy on my mind, as well as my wifes, lately. Between the crappy weather and constant thoughts of Pepper, I suppose I have a little depression. You think the excitement of the new Orchid developments would help lift my spirits, but unfortunately they don’t quite get the job done. He was such a huge part of our lives for the last 14 plus years, so I totally expected his death would be a challenge for us. I sit, for a few minutes in the morning, talking to him.. To his picture resting near his ashes. He didn’t answer me when he was living (either), but he was a real good listener. He always had a way to comfort me, just being his little self. Pepper carried a certain warmth around with his presence, and it took only about 5 seconds to realize that warmth had vanished, when he took his last breath.
Things Will Get Better ..
Time will pass, the ice will melt, and the air will warm once more. My mood will turn to a happier one when the leaves come back to fill the empty branches of the trees. We’ll all become busy again.. Summer activities, travel, and complaining about the heat and humidity will fill our time. It takes time to process loss and life after it. I allow myself this short time every morning, to reflect and center myself, before facing the day.
Pepper is no longer here to listen to my morning rambles, look me in the eye and somehow tell me not to leave, and when I eventually do, sit and wait patiently on my return. No he isn’t. I’ll never quite get over all those years he did, and the way I looked forward to his forgiveness and warm greeting as I arrived home.
Final Thought ..
Molly has her own way to say “I Love You” and welcome home.. Maybe not quite the same as our ‘Buddy Boy’ did, but we couldn’t have survived these days without her. She has been our little blessing. She listens to me.. I know she does, even though she doesn't show it like Pepper did. I am pretty sure that when she is listening to me she is thinking,
“You mean to tell me Pepper actually listened to all this crap your spewing?”
Hahahahaha.. I would like to think he did.
“They [dogs] never talk about themselves but listen to you while you talk about yourself, and keep up an appearance of being interested in the conversation.”
― Jerome K. Jerome
“Speak to me: I will spend my lifetime trying to understand you.”
― Kamand Kojouri
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About Me ~ The Artist
My art work incorporates a wide variety of subject matter, including landscape, seascape, cityscape, and still life images. My works are the product of a continuing process of exploration through which I seek to portray personal and visionary interpretations of my surroundings. My paintings are impressions of places and events from everyday life, an interpretation of my imagination, and personal responses to what I see and feel on a daily basis. More recently I have invested generous amounts of time into my landscape painting. I am surrounded by natural and man made beauty, which inherently presents itself in the tri-state area, and almost demands that I paint it.
Not everything is art. Art is not everything, but it comes close. Art is everywhere and all the time. Art makes you experience the beauty of the world, the people in it, and the places we call home. Art itself is so influential that it can tell stories, show feelings, and express passion or fury. Art exists in addition to language; expression of sensations and thoughts, revealing a way of thinking too subtle and delicate for words.
For me art requires love, honesty and perseverance. In return, it reveals some personal, non-analyzable, and creative untamed passion. For the public, art with its magnificent beauty, improves mood and health and builds better human beings and communities. It engages the intellect, softens the heart, strengthens the soul and frees the spirit.
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