The regret I had, was to put all my hope on one thing, then thought, that was all for me, do you know how I felt, when my expectations didn't go as plan? I was wrecked, life became tiring and hurt, I began to think, If I could have the time back, to do it all over again, I wouldn't have made same mistakes, but what happen has already happened, I can only face the future, not the past, but the question is "can what we didn't performed very well, ever yield the expected result?
I thought all I was to do, was to learn a particular thing for a longer period of time, without taking time to check if that area were the one, I was really good at, and which I can perform perfectly well, yeah, I know being in school is awesome but in country like mine and having parents who understands that any height a man need to acquired need to be from school, and so, you need to put all of your best and close your eyes on other things, which may even benefits you more, is somehow not good, at times, parents decide on what children's would be, which is not good, I see this behavior as "old fashioned.
Ten years ago, when I was 18, I remember most of my friends who went for skills, they allow an open door to their brains and they received a life leaf, but never a time, did I consider their actions as something meaningful, rather, I was like, "they are wasting their time on something worth not taking a peak" now that, the cock has crow, I can the needs for that knowledge they acquired, because what that knowledge yield is revealed, when i look back at it, I noticed it is too late for me, to join the winning club.
That was when I understand that, for anyone to be successful in life, risks must be play extremely and not minding what may comes out of it, without taking risks, that only means, you are not taking any actions toward success.
Because some of those friends who learnt skills even while studying, are now Managers with lot more trainees in their workshop, at times, I say to myself "had I know, I wouldn't have put all my hope on one basket" I gathered up courage and strength and i think less about the things, I failed to do in the past and believe, I can make it to the top, but firstly, I have to be strong and encouraging to myself positively, being weak, simply means you have accepted defeat.
I remember this saying that, "the world is a free world but to make it to the top involved fighting, and this fighting here, isn't normal fight that we see in wrestling, but it means that, you have to bring in skills, knowledge, ideas which would benefit humanity, and then you could make a living in what you have exposed.
I also remember my Dad telling me that, "nothing comes for nothing" without labour you are changing nothing and at the end, nothing would be changed on you, when a man makes an impact in his environment, his people would honour him but when a man lives, without people noticing his presence, even if he is not there again, no one would ever missed him, since he didn't lay a solid rock that could be used in remembrance of him.
I wish I had the chance to change the things I failed to do.
I wish I can turn back time.
It hurt to know, even wishes can't be wish.