How do I choose between 2 difficult situations?
Today I'm seeking advice from everyone. For those who haven't read any of my blogs before, I left my job some time ago for various reasons.
About a month ago I was contacted by my previous workplace. They were ready to meet all my terms of employment, they told me they would schedule an interview via zoom for me and other applicants which they did and I did not hear from them after that.
Fast forward to 4 days ago, I got a call from them, saying I got the job. The call ended and I did not know what to feel. I should be happy I told myself, but I wasn't happy.
I was far from happy, I was just numb. A friend of mine was with me when the call came through and she was happy. I told her I do not feel happy. Yes, my conditions have been met but I was skeptical.
My skepticism is as a result of my past experience. I am worried majorly because of the work environment and the people I would be working with.
There's a saying that "affliction shall not rise the second time" and I am worried that affliction may indeed rise the second time if I go back.
I shared my worries with my friend and she has so many reasons why I should be happy. One is the fact that they told me before I left that they would easily replace me, but that wasn't the case. They were unable to replace me and now I'm being replaced by me.
She also added that I'd gain more respect, the fact that I never went back to beg them for the job gives me an advantage. What it says is that they are the ones who need me, not the other way round.
While these are valid reasons to go back, I still wonder if they will not start being toxic again. It took a while for me to heal myself from the mental stress they caused, I do not want to put myself in a compromising situation again.
My boyfriend has given me practical steps I can use to avoid getting into that kind of situation again. I ought to resume work on Monday, but I still wonder if I'm making the right choice.
I'd like to know what you think about the whole situation, any advice would be highly appreciated.
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