Oh, I love how honest and sincere this letter is.
I'd like to say that maybe you are a very cautious person. Maybe it's not always a good thing because, well, one has to live life and worry less about mistakes. I will say we are more alike in this regard, but that has never made me feel happy as I want.
So, lately, I do what I need and say what I need when I need—responsibly, though—and worry less about what people may think of me. It turns out living in the moment truly is more fulfilling.
Best wishes, mate!