This very powerful and full of accuracy but, it sounds like you're too hard on yourself. Well, maybe I totally understand. The supernaturality of life is more than what we take it for. This is a world where someone who planned to buy a Mercedes-Benz tomorrow ends up getting dead before the next morning. Yeah, trust me sometimes it feels like money is vanity, other times it feels like building and hardwork is absurdity. These are the illusion and the initiation of the spirit of failure and backwardness.
The hardest thing must be done
Dear Jose, the reason why it's hard to forget isn't because of the loss alone but because you feel this is the wrong time. Yes, you're curious, you need an answer, you kept thinking this is coming very quickly. Obviously, you know death is inevitable. The easiest way to be safe is by accepting the new reality. Everything in the universe is full of forces. Your thoughts and thinking are forced. The more you ponder, the more you find clarity. There are some clarifications that should be given up on. Yes, because the more you open the more you get hurt.
You're a strong man dearie, I can see you as the future of our generation. I see you with the key of some impossibility. Stay focused and keep building.