What will be will indeed be because nothing can change what it is meant to be in life.
It is said that love is sweet when you are with the right person and I always tell that if your relationship doesn't give you happiness, it is better to quit and let them go after all, love is not a do-or-die affair.
Some prayers didn't answer because if it does, we might get hurt at the end of it so God delayed them from answering so that we won't get hurt but then we will feel sad because of the delay.
I could remember when I was unlucky with the relationship then I was working and I can take care of myself but I want love so bad but everything I do to keep the relationship eventually ends in vain.
If I meet someone that wants me to be quiet I will obey till the last day of the relationship, if I meet someone that wants me to be lousy I will keep to that but in the end, things still badly
My last relationship was a toxic one but because I wanted the relationship so bad, I choose to stay one day, we had a misunderstanding like we always do and before I could say anything, the guy slapped me.
It was like there was lightning everywhere and I wonder how some married women endure abuse in their relationships.
I didn't get myself for like 30minutes and when I finally regained myself I just said, "I quit" and went out of his house.
I then vow never to have anything to do with him again and I stood on my words even though he came back to beg.
I didn't give him any chance to get close to me again because I quit being humiliated like an animal all in the name of love.
After some years we ran into each other at the market and I pretend to be nice with a smile on my face he said, "can I have your number please?".
I replied, "so you think I can be your friend after all you put me through? No you can't have my number".
What was I driving at in this story is that maybe God doesn't want me to have a relationship yet, all he wanted for me was to work, go to school and then have a good life which I ended up doing.
Back in my previous relationships, I thought I have seen it all and I have it all. It is always sweet and glowing when we first started with sweet love but sometimes we don't have to push it, we need to be patient while God is at work.
What I thought was that if I dance to a guy's music, the relationship will work out not knowing that no matter how hard I try, how much I keep to every rule from a man, if he is not meant for you he will end up leaving you.
As a human, we are too forward in some aspects thinking that we don't want to be left behind meanwhile we should have just waited and seen what God has for us.