Loneliness is one common thing between me and maybe you but there will be always different reasons how we got into this situation and to be honest it is one thing I hated most in my life.
I hate when I can't hold in my loneliness
There are moments when a person feels low which is inevitable and it Gets hard to hold your emotions and just lie to yourself.
I know people reach out to friend or family when they get too sad but for some people this ain't an option. Well, at least that loneliness is something always stays with me.
Staying in the room all day, anti social, expressing myself too much rare moments, sleepless nights, bored but ain't got nothing to do this is all way too much given by loneliness.
This emptiness is kind of a Worse feeling and maybe everything will be fixed once a person do friendship with loneliness.
It is hard to accept but when you accept the loneliness and start to be happy alone things would be really different.
The worst part of Loneliness
For me it is the childhood traumas, hard to swallow and forget everything but then I lost the only good friend ever had in real life cuz of not able to apologize and fix everything.
It steals all excitement you had once cuz you know it will break you even more weak.
Loneliness comes with overthinking and the only time when I don't think is while asleep. Most of the time in a better way like writing release stress and helps pretty much in this sense.
Surviving with Loneliness
This is like a cancer slowly killing from inside and in time like when people you trusted and thought are friends starts to leave without reason, stuck in a bad phase of life but ain't no one to ask what you're feeling.
Sometimes, what a person need is to hear from someone how they're doing or going in life.
Well, loneliness taught me a lot of things to survive like staying quiet when need. Keeping things upto me. Understanding what other person might going through. Knowing what are things that can make someone sad.
A Way out of this
Is there even a escape from loneliness? Yea, I found some friends online and simply do chat most of the time. Watching Movies, spending more time on social media just creating own happiness is only way I think to escape from being lonely.
Wrapping up..
The life goes on and it must, many kind of things we hate somehow makes us better. I believe true courage is all about being honest to yourself and facing the truth.
Trying to become a better version of myself and I know what I was one year ago isn't where I'm now anymore and couldn't get more better than having emotions so it's just human nature.
Well, let me know what's that one thing you hated most and if you ever felt like I did in comments.
