***Too difficult or maybe I'm just too lazy –*** Those are words that seem to have dawned on me recently. After the end of 2023, I tried to focus more on myself to grow beyond my comfort zone. Until now, I've been like a weed growing inside a jar, looking out but never truly venturing far from where I sprouted. Bathed in sunlight but never really touching or feeling it directly. There's a limitation holding me back from directly touching the light and growing in my own way. Though my family is talented in the arts, it seems I'm not one of them. I lack the inherent skills like my father and uncles, who have been proficient in drawing since childhood. As I mentioned, whether it's too difficult for me or I'm just too lazy to train, I have an interest in drawing, but it always ends with results that fall short of my expectations, as if I'm stuck at a certain point. Btw, I'll do what I can. ━━━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ✦ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━━━ ### **What Pattern?** ━━━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ✦ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━━━ I've learned that some things follow a pattern, are easily predictable, and can be learned easily, such as routines. When you do something repeatedly and continuously, it becomes something easy for you. Of course, but I don't know how this applies to others. ![thumb.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/bayuismail/48Qu4JsDBobAyCM85DKKcg7cXFxmTrFNQ7Y7rVk4Ft3cjpH2kFAP5v1ZK5PQ8iShrJ.jpg) I apply this routine to my art, doing it continuously while understanding what needs improvement and what suits my style. It starts by finding and understanding what makes me feel alive. ━━━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ✦ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━━━ ### **Just do it!** ━━━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ✦ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━━━ Babies also need time to learn to walk and then run! Even though we often fall repeatedly in childhood, it teaches us that when we fall, we feel pain, and that pain makes us more cautious. As adults, we sometimes still remember how it feels to fall, but now we have sturdy legs with reflexes that can prevent us from falling. My first step, initially, I wasn't familiar with the art I create. I was still rigid in choosing and determining the theme for my works. With [LMAC](https://peakd.com/c/hive-174695/created), I began my journey of creating my first art in early 2022. About two years ago, I truly had no idea what I was doing. I created designs on a whim without understanding what I was making. However, it was an extraordinary first step for me, a step that allowed me to run well until now. _{[My first work at LMAC](https://peakd.com/hive-174695/@bayuismail/lets-make-a-collage-a-contest-for-all-creatives-on-hive-round-109-or-two-perspectives)} ![one.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/bayuismail/EoiUjXLDnwqR1cyEvxCxoYHNwiiiqMZYs2FiibmwVXp55H3fK8j1RGmPaq4BvHzq84w.jpg) Other steps are needed to keep moving forward after taking the first step. These are my second and third works after I finally dared to keep going. Although they still look stiff, here I began to think about and play with colors in my art. _{The [Second](https://peakd.com/hive-174695/@bayuismail/lets-make-a-collage-a-contest-for-all-creatives-on-hive-round-110-the-judging-eyes), and the [Third](https://peakd.com/hive-174695/@bayuismail/art-and-science-an-lmac-special-teaming-up-with-stemsocial)} ![two.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/bayuismail/Eos2GLtyaSrFkWDYpBPwnuARxkcPsPiaeV7xL3jxqka6UcpHXAe8Nck35hrmwReevZR.jpg) ![three.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/bayuismail/23wByPdx4fnPpuUoGvmd369Ke98PLdLwAvf1o2Err83woVKtUXURZXv63LUA95SuQEsAT.jpg) ━━━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ✦ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━━━ ### **Improvisation Might Help** ━━━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ✦ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━━━ Long story short, after months of continuously creating collages and learning, 2023 arrived. It was a sad beginning for me after losing one of my beloved cats. Here, I created a collage to remember my little friend, and here I started making works with somewhat darker themes. _{[Source](https://peakd.com/hive-174695/@bayuismail/lets-make-a-collage-a-contest-for-all-creatives-on-hive-round-156-a-place-to-call-home)} ![four.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/bayuismail/23tbkssNgxXrqaGBY54wZdE9ex6Db4qSGSvkeKH3VWYmuR52Re5mJgzaPUJVBDHqaq2GX.jpg) _{[Source](https://peakd.com/hive-174695/@bayuismail/lets-make-a-collage-a-contest-for-all-creatives-on-hive-round-154-the-mysterious-world)} ![five.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/bayuismail/23vhWHbUBcFKjkqHPPmkawrzxvgC2TH5rbhHTyKsnstCDbuw8cSN1AgZgPrjWUbbFZWrL.jpg) I could play with various colors and use some effects that helped perfect my shortcomings. I started improvising with the objects I used. Not just focusing on one color, I also started combining colors that made my collage come alive. Playing with colors is something I still do until now. _{[Source](https://peakd.com/hive-174695/@bayuismail/lets-make-a-collage-a-contest-for-all-creatives-on-hive-round-155-light-eater)} ![six.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/bayuismail/23u5XKmmGdw74upMrEJdCUfH4k6mCfDEu4QDcKj6QTQqZsfRXfRDFAD3tXk9NeEJn5abE.jpg) ━━━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ✦ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━━━ ### **Inject Emotion Into My Art** ━━━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ✦ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━━━ Time passes so quickly, and there are times I feel tired and weary when creating these artworks. Especially when I can't find inspiration and ideas in creating art. It's normal to feel tired, you don't always feel enthusiastic every day. The sky isn't always clear, sometimes rain falls to clean the thickening dust. Resting and not forcing yourself is the best thing you can do when you feel tired. When the rain has fallen, now it's time for the rainbow to appear. To make my art felt, I try to infuse emotions into it, sometimes making my works look like dramatic scenes you can feel. Usually, I combine two or more elements in my work. By adding emotions to it, I hope to connect with people who see my art. _{[Source](https://peakd.com/hive-174695/@bayuismail/lets-make-a-collage-freestyle-crying-fox)} ![seven.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/bayuismail/23tRxb6NcZ352dNEDgeVsJx13zo1e9qMidSjQ51nFmq9yXjZ5jPH2aEydPFy3iF2KUugQ.jpg) _{[Source](https://peakd.com/hive-174695/@bayuismail/lets-make-a-collage-a-contest-for-all-creatives-on-hive-round-176-keep-the-forest-alive)} ![eight.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/bayuismail/23tbPh8ndBQvnx6EipNsrMRaqjxoibsTqgxPLoAiFXHf9FWggs1yyXZRutoWcVX6eb6dS.jpg) _{[Source](https://peakd.com/hive-174695/@bayuismail/lets-make-a-collage-a-contest-for-all-creatives-on-hive-round-178-play-with-friends)} ![nine.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/bayuismail/23yJ7oR5TmxZkoMWphVUzN6RDQLtFU2mPXjD1hgzFEAigBYApBJzQq6higC1H5hyUQi67.jpg) It's almost the end of 2023, and I'm starting to think about what I will do next in 2024. I'm considering taking my works more seriously. Some pictures I created at the end of last year, I have felt so many changes I have achieved. From a small, awkward step in the #LMAC community, now I have learned how to run and control my speed in running. Although it's not a short time, I truly enjoy this journey. Enjoying every moment I've spent creating my art. _{[Source](https://peakd.com/hive-174695/@bayuismail/lets-make-a-collage-freestyle-cats-in-love)} ![thirteen.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/bayuismail/23tmFuxggZ6v2QQjtwYLo9YwJZin9kAkTZxPDQMjT9NLQJFqxWGCtCJ7rBdEAccQN4E67.jpg) _{[Source](https://peakd.com/hive-174695/@bayuismail/lets-make-a-collage-a-contest-for-all-creatives-on-hive-round-193-the-dragon-slayer)} ![twelve.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/bayuismail/23wMSGX2zf9Kww4Sv4QvaiKBEQ3yQgNxKtoGSQW5wgLRfAooPZd4wLXcjceyvmnxydzR2.jpg) ━━━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ✦ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━━━ ### **Not Easy, But Consistency Is the Answer** ━━━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ✦ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━━━ Going back to my writing at the beginning, 'Too difficult or maybe I'm just too lazy.' As time goes on, I keep fixing mistakes and trying various improvisations to make my art the best it can be. Even though inspiration doesn't always come easily, that's the challenge—stay consistent and keep exploring. Something that seemed difficult to me turns out not as hard as it seemed in my head when I've done it repeatedly. _{[Source](https://peakd.com/hive-158694/@bayuismail/digital-art-where-do-we-go-now)} ![lasts.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/bayuismail/246RkYpyxduC3XHHKh9WukcNcBmot4oKZLve7uLgM3SiK3xpAtMzE7wfYcvsZZvP7owPD.jpg) _{[Source](https://peakd.com/hive-158694/@bayuismail/cosmic-creations-rebirth-or-moonchild)} ![last.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/bayuismail/23uQkSMvaTfuscB2bd3HFW3AP3V3MiKKpjjA7yAmEtAGV7SjLKcJJdMftbRrqbzoYVygs.jpg) These are my latest works. Currently, I'm interested in making something as minimalistic as possible. In 2024, I decided to stay consistent in deepening my art. I'm seeking more inspiration and sharing more of what I have. Nothing is difficult when you understand the pattern! Don't be too hard on yourself; just do your best and keep moving forward. I hope in this year I can grow with the warm sunshine. I hope I can grow in the way I want, and I hope this year can be a good one for all of us. Let ourself shine! ━━━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ✦ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━━━ Thank you for reading and supporting my blog! Stay connected with me on my social here: https://linktr.ee/bbbaym Find me on **[Instagram](https://hive.blog/@bayuismail) | [YouTube](https://www.youtube.com/@whitebluepoisonivy) | [Meta](https://www.facebook.com/bbbaym/) | [Blog](https://hive.blog/@bayuismail) | [Discord](https://discord.com/invite/ZtfKHtn7)** ━━━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ✦ ⭒ ━━━━━━ ⭒ ━━━━━━━━

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