Today's plans didn't work. I got up early and prepared to ride a bus that passes twice in the day next to where I live, once at 8 a.m. and then at 18 p.m.
I didn't have to wait in the morning because someone else hitchhiked me before and I was very early in town with nothing to do. I sat in a sunlit space and took in the warmth, which was nice.
The idea was to stay all day there and take the bus of the afternoon back to the forest. My plans were to be at the library preparing some post for Hive, organize an idea of a community garden, and perhaps talk to a family who's house burned down some time ago so that I might go and help them.
Perhaps the mistake was going to the library first, as for some reason I begin feeling terribly out of place there. I missed my beautiful daily scenery in the forest, I felt everything surrounding me was menacing in some way. I can't really explain as there was no particular reason.
Keep in mind that this is my first attempt in years to remain in town for anything longer than shopping the needed goods. I didn't think it would be so hard.
It didn't help that I picked up a book called "Yoga", expecting some wisdom to be more open to the now, but instead I found myself in a story of how no matter how much you search for peace, life is always springing up new dramas and making your efforts crumble 😑
I couldn't help it. My thoughts turned to: "I have the perfect life in the forest, I don't need any of this, and there's no reason to get involved in other people's lives". That's actually sound advice, I think it's the best thing that one can do; Be where you want to live and put all your effort in making it a prosperous place.
Besides, all my intentions to do things with the community have only one real goal and I'm sorry if this seems too basic, but all I'm interested is in finding femenine company, which is the only thing I find lacking of this lifestyle. So I called out my bullshit and put my feet to walk back home.
You might think that why don't I get Tinder on my phone and be over with the problem. I don't know, there's just something I don't like about dating apps. I like it when you meet someone and there's a connection, a real pull to find out more about them. I consider it though, it's a constant thought.
I imagine how my profile would be and there are many options:
- The pretty version:
Nature lover, free soul, gardener and forester. I'm looking for people to connect with as I live a bit isolated and have few chances to meet new friends.
- The dark version:
I'm not able to find my inner peace so I'm here on this platform looking for some nympho who wants to duck me till I'm dry and I'll be grateful cause I won't even have energy to be anxious.
- The truth version
I can be extremely friendly and then turn into a ferocious beast. The only way we're going to get along is if you love the forest so much that you'd have a werewolf for a couple and be chill about it. Only approach of you feel you can handle Nature's peace and it's storms.
And there you have it, with these options in mind I'd rather not. Of course they are all me. I'm all of these descriptions and then some. I wonder if I'd get any matches with the truth version 🤔 I think I should try it just to see the results haha.
Do you have a successful dating app story? Were you truthful or did you paint a pretty image of yourself? Maybe if I see some in the comments I may be convinced.