“I do not know what i want to be when i grow up”
As i child i said that A lot, whenever we are asked in school, other kids has alot to say, a pilot, teacher, doctors or a Pilot
They were alway so precise like saying it alone was enough to actualize it but yes for some they worked towards it and are either what they wanted to be or better or at least close.
But me i never visioned myself being anything i wanted to go with the flow. I had different answer for every time the question is asked.
Lets back it up a little
I was the golden child for my parent especially my mum after trying for a child for 8 years after her first , i arrived... well i was told a boy was expected but instead they got me.
But still i grew up being like the boy they wanted, from my dress sense, to my actions..i ensured i never gave them any reason to wish i was a boy....
i was the best child any parent could ask for, well disciplined, best result in school, won competitions, loved God. I literally grew
Up to impress my family, i did everything by the book...
Not sure i knew any other way of doing things so including my life dreams i guess I was waiting for instructions too on what next or what is really expected of me.
Deciding what i wanted to be now i had grown and ready to move to college was still altered by JAMB ...if you are from this part of the world (Nigeria) I’m sure you understand but if not let me explain
we write a general exam here called JAMB to determine the course we study, you may write “engineering” and end with “Education” just to avoid rewriting over and over again cause it would still be same trend so you settle and make do with the course
Yes i settled and ended up with GEOLOGY still i gave it my all and graduated best in my class
This is after over 23 years of my life....
i woke up one day and everything changed , i decided that i didn’t want to have to settle.. yes It's never too late to try to do something about it and i did or will i say i am working on it...
So Yes i settled into life and it took me along... it wasn’t so bad, it may not be what i really wanted but it was just enough to make me into who i have become
My pastor alway says something
“Man proposes, God disposes”
Meaning people can make plans but whether or not they are successful depends on God
So even if i had a dream and planned who is to say it would have ended up Just the way i wanted it to?
Well in all i am grateful for how far i have gone and i am grateful for the woman i have become.
Thank you for staying till the end until
Next time hivers
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