When was the last time you tried something new? Did it change you?
My sister @jongcl tagged me on her post about this week's contest. I am not really into writing because I donāt trust myself enough every time I write, like essays or just a simple letter. I am afraid to be judged. But I am grateful to have my siblings around me. They always support me, cheer me up, and help me a lot in my personal growth. So, here I am, writing and sharing with you all snippets of my life. I joined this contest because my sister believes that my journey of being single is worth sharing.
If you are a woman and also want to join, you may check their contest post below:
When was the last time you tried something new? Did it change you? August of 2020. Yes, it changed me.
Here is my answer: Being single!
Last year in August, things happened unexpectedly. I and my long-term partner broke up. Yes, I got my heart broken. It was very painful and tough for me because we've been together for eleven (11) long years. YES, THAT LONG. I'm stuck with all the questions; How will I ever move on? WILL I EVER MOVE ON? I mean it's been eleven years that Iāve been in a relationship. I forgot how itās like to be single. How will I forget the person whom I spent almost half of my life with? How will I live now? It shattered me into every possible way that my heart can be torn into pieces.
I was devastated and puzzled as to how will I move forward with my life. But I am reminded by God's love for me, the unconditional love and support of my family and friends. So I moved forward. I embraced all the pains and sorrows, and even the struggle of sleeping. It was very hard, both my mind and my heart were kept rumbling at that time but I was reminded also of my friendās advice, āmind over the heartā and so, that kept me going. I also kept on praying. My faith in God became stronger. I surpassed it all. And now, I am living a happy single life, with no worries and no doubts. I am free.
How did ābeing singleā change me?
Being single for a year now has changed me a lot. I am a whole different person now. The break-up taught me a lot of things. I now value myself. I now know my worth as a woman. I was so dependent on my ex-partner before that loving and giving value to myself was never a priority. But I realized that it is important to think of myself first. It's vital to love myself and also give value to my existence.
Loving ourselves is not a selfish act but it is necessary. For eleven years I have forgotten how to properly love myself because I was too preoccupied by being a good girlfriend.
Life is unpredictable, indeed. Who would have thought I will make it this far? A year of being single!! Itās extra challenging as well for it happens to be in the time of pandemic that I went from taken to single. It was a roller coaster ride of self-progress. Truly everything happens for a reason.
I am now more focused on myself. My growth. My plans. My goals. My dreams.
I am happy now. Stress-free. No worries. Living my best life. Thankful for all the heartaches, struggles, and pains in my past for that made me who I am today.
There is still one thing I wanted to do being single. To travel alone. All by myself. I want to experience the feeling of being alone in new placesādiscovering, exploring, wandering. Iāve been wanting to do that ever since and I do hope I will be able to do that soon. Looking forward to Better Days ahead. May this pandemic end the soonest.
This was my last outside Cebu travel. And I can't wait to travel again.
āStarting over is never easy. It takes time, courage, perseverance, and patience. You just have to trust the process. Trust in yourself. And most importantly to beliEVE in yourself.ā
I am tagging my sisters @gwenfinity @morenatravels @sassycebuana @swaycanete again. Let's show them what we've got. šŖš»
Thank you for your time reading this post, beautiful hivers! Have a great week yāall!
Until then. š