What is your number one passion, the thing you do that
makes you feel the most happy, peaceful, or satisfied?
This question really makes me thinking about passion. Do I have one? To be honest, I don't know if I have the number one passion. There are things that I know I enjoy doing but I am not sure if they are my passions yet. I am still on my way to learn and understand myself so I think it would be best to share with you what I love to do in my Worlds. Oh you read it right, it's Worlds in plural because I have two: my inner world and outer world.
Thing that I want to do in My Inner World
Let me tell you about my love for dried flowers. I started doing it not so long ago. I love to go to walking tracks near home so I can enjoy the beauty of wildflowers. Small flowers like Daisies are growing everywhere in my city. I can spend hours just to admire them on the grass fields.
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It was at the end of autumn this year when I started feeling sad as the winter would come soon and I was not able to go out side often to see my pretty flowers. One day, while watching YouTube videos, a tutorial video about dried flowers caught my attention. That was the moment I thought: why not dry the beautiful wildflowers and use them to decorate photo frames so I can look at them during my dull grey winter days.
I start enjoy this hobby very much when I know I can decorate postcards and photo frames with dried flowers. This way, I can make presents for people I love.
When I spend time with dried flowers, I feel like I am in a different world where I am the creator and my flowers are helping me to build it. I always put my love and thinking in the presents for my loved ones, I thought about our best moments when we laughed and had fun together. And just like this, It fills me with joy and energy.
I used to have difficulty to control my chatter thought. In fact, I find difficult to just relax and not worrying about things as I don't know what relax means. And thanks to this hobby, I learn to live in the present and just being with myself without thinking or worrying about other things in life. Now I know fully relax is being with myself, calm my chatter thoughts and be creative in my own world.
My new interest in the Outer World
It's Hiving. I guess joining Hive is the next step in my life journey to understand about myself and learn my lessons. I used to think that I am good at being with myself and I enjoy it. That's enough to live my happy life. There was no need to communicate or spend too much of my time with the outside world.
I feel lazy to meet new people and even just share my things online because I don't have the need to share it (also privacy security is another thing I am concerned). Until I realise something is not right. Human is different with other species by the ability to share and pass on the knowledge. Sharing about my life is not something that I should be afraid of, it is the way to express myself and help others to understand me.
In addition, I do believe in a balancing lifestyle, I am exploring my inner world and I am excited about it, but how about the outer world? I should explore it as well. Too much of one side is not good for me.
At the moment, I am really enjoy participating on Hive, sharing my experiences and learn about others. I still don't like to share too much information about my life on a digital world but somehow, I feel trusted here.
Just several days ago I had a negative thought and stress about my progress and ability on Hive. I compared myself with others and lost my focus and unable to write anything probably. Fortunately, I received huge support from everyone on Hive and learn from their valuable lessons.
I am so happy to be a part of the eco-system that encourages me to talk and share things that I am still not confidence enough to talk in real life. I can't tell you if this is my passion yet but right now I am so glad that I am a part of it. Hive keeps me motivated everyday. Everything I do and I would like to do, every emotion, thought both positive and negative, I want to share it on Hive.
Thank you @ladiesofhive for creating this contest so I have a chance to talk and think with myself. And to my dear friend @trangbaby who invited me and encouraged me to join this contest: Thank you.