"To be both a participant AND observer in one's own life is rarely attempted; a skill that even fewer people master." - Dr. E.A.P. (my late father and first mentor).
Living your life while also watching it like a Netflix series or an Apple TV movie may sound like a strange thing to do.
But if you really think about it, honest introspection is a scary and difficult task, indeed.
It forces you to look at yourself in a different way; much like how others may see you.
You are challenged to "think about your thoughts" - an activity that the rest of the world desperately avoids; spending their precious free time on temporary, expensive, mind-numbing or destructive distractions.
Look in the mirror.
Think about the thoughts that affect you the most (and that occur most often).
Truly examine the recurrent themes in your life.
Do you like what you see?
If yes, great.
If not, that's great too.
You've taken the important step of acknowledging your dissatisfaction and can begin changing the situation.
But remember this, "Nothing will change in your life until you do."
It's not enough to be aware and decide to change, you must accompany the decision with concrete actions.
Even the simple act of writing down your intentions instantly brings your thoughts into the real world.
It makes them tangible.
It gives them life.
Here's an article I wrote explaining why you should always write things down:
"(IJCH) Something To Ponder - Muses are "Conditional"'
Back on topic: Introspection (aka focused self-reflection)
Yes, being a participant AND an observer in your own life is a hard, disturbing and terribly frightening task.
But IMHO, it offers so many profound personal benefits - least of which is that it allows you to meet and make best friends with yourself.
So, you may ask, 'How do I start?"
Keep a personal journal.
It's a great way to unburden yourself of irrational worries.
It helps you learn how to forgive others and more importantly, how to forgive yourself.
A personal journal helps you avoid the self-made prisons that too many people unnecessarily place themselves in.
I leave you with another quote from my late father (and first mentor):
"Look around you, son.. Everything you see is no different than what you see in a mirror - a reflection of yourself." - Dr. E.A.P.
Submitted for you to ponder in a quiet place.
May you and yours be well and love life today, my friend.
In Lak'ech, JaiChai
(JaiChai 25 SEP 2021. Simultaneous multi-site submissions posted. All rights reserved.)