Afternoon Dreamers!

Can you believe I am still suffering with lack of sleep? Nothing seems to help. I’ve tried sleeping pills, warm milk, hot bath all before bedtime and I’m still no further forward. What is going on? Even when I do drift off to sleep at 11pm, I’m still awake at 1am and every hour after that. It’s only when I fall asleep about 6am and wake up at 8am do I feel like a zombie. I feel so drained and drowsy like I have overslept! That’s a joke in itself!!! Anyway, here is what happened last night.

Wednesday 9th January 2019

Needless to say, I didn’t really have any dreams as such. What I did suffer from was sleep paralysis and what a horrible night it was. I remember I was lying in a bed in some hotel and my mum and dad were sat at a round, wooden, coffee table. I could feel myself not being able to breathe. My body was so static and I tried desperately to open my mouth to scream for help. My mouth was open and I was screaming out ”Help me!!” No sound came out. I tried to use my foot to kick something off the table that my parents were sat at. I did manage to knock some papers off with great difficulty. I thought ’Great! This will get their attention!’ It didn’t. My mum bent down to pick up the papers and put them on the table. Then she continued her conversation with my dad. I was so upset. I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t move. I just wanted to wake up.

My regular followers will know that I suffer a lot with sleep paralysis. This one was so horrible. No wonder I feel drained. The worse thing is when you are going through the motions, everything is real. The surroundings, the inability to move or do anything. You feel so alone and from my personal experience, I always feel like I’m going to die of suffocation! I know when I wake up it was ’just a dream’ but it’s not. I feel so scared and alone. No one can help me and I can only help myself, but how is that supposed to happen when the ability to move and speak has been removed? The worse part is after waking up, you feel so sick and exhausted. Your eyes feel like they have weights on and your body is telling you to go back to sleep, but your mind is telling you not to, because you are going to end up back in the scary place again.

If you enjoyed this dream, why not read my diary.