Hi, guys!
I decided that if I want to improve my life in such a way that I have enough strength for everything, I should also think about rest accordingly. So far, this is the weakest point in my plan. The problem is that so far the body has not recovered and requires as much rest as possible, and it’s hard for me to find a balance between what it really needs and what it asks for in excess.
The husband says that it is normal when you want to lie down a lot during the recovery period. But I think it's very easy to lose balance and feel too sorry for yourself. Indulgence is a dangerous thing, it is worth giving yourself one, as they immediately multiply.
I also realized that I apparently had a very possible creative crisis. Over the years, I've been painting my paintings on the basis of "what to paint" rather than "what I want to paint" and it seems to have played a trick on me in the end. Now I'm trying to figure out what and how I want to do, and I can't. I sit down, try to start working and understand that all this has already happened, that all this is terribly banal, and my fantasy does not want to turn on at all, and even more so what is called a flight of fancy. It’s like I’m constantly turning around to some rules, and this doesn’t make the situation easier or easier, but it only makes everything worse.
The same applies, for example, to my artistic Instagram account. I'm worried that my audience won't like the change in the drawing. Although in fact the audience is not very large and looking at the opinions of complete strangers is rather stupid.
Tomorrow I plan to try again and hope that it will be a more successful attempt. It has to happen sooner or later.
P.S. My dog still performs well as a creative assistant.
Seeyou in the next post!
Love, Inber