30 APRIL 2024
In my last (first) entry here, I felt good about the whole "reviewing my intentions" thing - at least as a starting point - so today I will pick up with the next one down the line, which is: FAMILY AND RELATIONSHIPS.
I VALUE THE SPECIAL RELATIONSHIPS I HAVE. I ENJOY CONVERSING WITH THE BIRDS AROUND ME - IT ALWAYS GIVES ME SUCH A THRILL TO SEE THEM FLOCK TO ME AND TO HEAR THEM RESPOND TO MY CALLS. I ENJOY THE TIME I SPEND WITH MY WIFE AND CHILDREN, AND THEY ENJOY SPENDING TIME WITH ME. I AM SURROUNDED BY LOVING RELATIONSHIPS, ATTUNED TO THE LIVING CREATURES OF THE WORLD AROUND ME, AND FULFILLED BY THE DEEP CONNECTIONS I SHARE WITH ALL LIVING THINGS. I HAVE A SPECIAL RELATIONSHIP WITH CROWS AND IT CAUSES MY HEART TO SWELL WITH JOY AND LOVE TO GIVE THEM MY ATTENTION AND AFFECTION. WHEN THE BIRDS HEAR MY FLUTE OR YIDAKI, I AM OVERCOME WITH JOY AND LOVE AS THEY FLOCK AROUND ME TO SING ALONG.
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This intentional is aligned with several of what I currently hold as my core values; namely:
Compassion, Growth, Inner Harmony, LOVE, Pleasure, Sprituality and Wisdom.
Oddly, as I pasted this in from the document where I originally wrote it, I remembered that I had laid in bed contemplating my intentions after the last journal entry. I had come up with several things that long have held importance in my heart and mind, but which had not yet been formally canonized within my written statement(s) of intention. Now of course, I can remember only that I once held these ideas but can not seem to bring them back into focus well enough to document what I had wanted to add. That's ok though, things always come back if they're meant to - and if they're not, I suppose there's no sense in worrying about them!
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Anyway, today I will get my writing flowing by reviewing my intentions with regard to family and relationships. This weekend was a great time for this. We spent the whole time cleaning pretty much, which should have been awful I suppose, but honestly it was really great spending time together and working together towards a common goal. We had some laughs amidst the endless labor, shared some good food, and then stayed up a few hours later than we should have last night, just to get a little bit of time laying together and watching TV...we watched The Tudors, a historical fiction centered around the kingship of Henry VIII.
The show isn't too highly rated, but I've been enjoying it well enough. I'm really wanting to see Anne Boleyn get whacked personally, but also being acutely aware of just how dishonest (or at least inaccurate) mainstream history can be leads me to wonder if she has been misrepresented throughout history - but the show portrays her as a truly awful person, and since we know common history holds her as having been executed by her husband the king, every time we watch I am hoping this will be the day she gets it...where we left off last night, she's got to be getting close.
As I mentioned in my entry for 28 April 2024, there was some near success with the crow/bird portion of my family and relationships goal, but not much more to speak of since that point. I got to hear from @cmplxty this weekend, which was really cool. He's been one of those solid dudes I've been fortunate to know on the blockchain since my early beginnings. I've been fortunate to have Hive as an outlet for sharing my story as I raise my children, learn new instruments and skills, even as I moved from one state to another - and the friends I've made along the way are certainly one of the strongest factors that always bring me back to Hive, even after long breaks.
In local news that affects pretty much no one, I saw this article today...I guess the place where I take my lunch breaks and play guitar during the summer will be under construction most of this summer. My assumption is that the noise will likely make it difficult to record there, but also that this will give me a nice fresh backdrop for future videos once complete. When I record guitar music, I always post that from my professional account, @rorykl - so be on the lookout there if you're curious to see the upgrades around Wilmington's Greenfield Lake!
Since coming active again on Hive, I've been thinking about The Albus Index, and debating whether or not to take on the great work of bringing it back up to date. As much as I hate the idea of sitting down and doing that, I also hate equally the idea of lettign it fall apart. It's come in handy on several occassions - pretty much any time I want to reference an old post of mine really, it's great to be able to go back through and find what I'm looking for quickly and easily by using a simple system of my own design, but I don't even know what the last entry would have been, so it's a bit of a big project to get into.
Usually I bring leftovers from the previous night's dinner for my lunch at work, but last night we basically just fed the children and kept working, so today I didn't have any food to bring with me. At the moment, I'm feeling pretty hungry, so I may go grab a breakfast sandwich from the gas station here soon. Isn't it kind of weird sometimes, being alive? Especially now, when we're more or less aware of the fact that we aren't simply our bodies but rather, something less physical which drives the body. We find ourselves attracted to physical traits on other people, but when you look at them you also know the small stuff that we tend not to think about. Like, here's a good looking person - but what's in their ear right now? We all have poop in our colons at any given time, although some are more full of shit than others. No matter how attractive someone is, they have it too. There are poops and farts and ear wax and boogers and hairs coming out of places - so many things it sometimes makes me wonder how the human species managed to propagate to this point...then again, I guess these things rest on my mind when I let them, but they've never had enough sway to stop me from having my own attractions and urges along the way...somehow we manage to get over it I guess.
I saw a comedian who joked about his own selective standards - he used the example that he would be grossed out if his girlfriend drank from his cup or used his toothbrush, but that he'd eat her butt without as much as a second thought. It's interesting to consider I guess, because we all have these selective lines in our psyche, but we don't often consider how ridiculous they are. A lot of times, I think about this when I watch shows and movies. I'll see an actor/actress pair acting out some intimate conversation, with their faces so close, and see them breathing through their mouths and wonder - how do professional actors deal with stank breath? Is there an unwritten rule that you absolutely do not show up on set with a stank mouth?? Or is there an unspoken rule that you're a professional and must deal with stank breath as it comes up? Or like cops, they sit in a car with their partner all day - how do they deal with farts? At least mormons are on bike. Some people have WAY stinkier farts than others. Mine are bad. It’s one of my least favorite qualities of mine, but I can eat the same food as the people around me, and yet produce something far more foul and odious than my peers. I guess I should be proud, but honestly sometimes I’m worried I may have passed on the stinky fart gene to at least one of my children. What if she’s married one day, and her husband and family come over for Christmas or something, and I cut one loose and he realizes she has the same farts as her dad? I’d be weirded out by that but not enough to end a relationship, so I guess it’s fine but isn’t that a weird thing? I once knew a girl who was really good looking until I realized just how much she looked like her brother and father - then it was weird. We never dated so I didn’t technically have to cross that bridge, but I’m sure someone has at some point.
I look at my hairline in the mirror and, if I look closely I can see the scalp beneath the hair. It makes me think, under our hair, we are all bald. I think this week I might sand my flute and give it a new look. The bare wood, if I recall, has a reddish hue to it - so I'm thinking a golden oak stain might make it look sort of a natural orange...maybe I'll add a carved sigil or two ;)
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