Having balanced well-being is hard. For a person like me who's almost never satisfied with things, I always tend to be suspicious when I'm completely at peace. For this reason, I can't remember the last time I was entirely at peace.
At every point in my life, I always have to find meaning. I always have to do something that's worthwhile and I always have to be working towards something. I always have one project of personal relevance to accomplish and most times I either accomplish these projects or I find a new project.
I have no idea what balanced well-being would feel like. However, I do know when my mind and body are in disarray and I need some direction. When this happens, I feel like my entire life is falling apart and I know I can't hold onto it alone. That's the point I make the relevant calls to clear my head and gain some perspective.
Gaining perspective has always been my go-to fix for creating what probably might be balanced well-being. I'm not quite sure. What I do know is that whenever I gain perspective, I always feel better and I begin to work with a direction and goal in mind. I gain satisfaction not by having nothing to do but by properly arranging my list of things to do.
A few weeks ago, I found myself in a situation where I had lost track of my direction and I felt lost. My days were beginning to look exactly the same and everything I had been working for was making no sense. I knew I needed to talk to someone or I just might lose my mind.
Whenever this happens, I call my older brother. He's one of the few people I can trust and well, he has always been the one with the awesome plans on the best directions to take.
He has led me on the right track many times so whenever I feel like I need some fixing, I know to call him and I'm certain he'll answer and give me the right counsel.
I tend to be quite block-headed but when it comes down to the things that matter, I open up and become as open-minded as possible. Especially when I trust the person I'm confiding in.
I still have no idea what balanced well-being is or what it feels like but I do know what living means and I completely understand that it's okay to not have a balance at certain points. It can be quite scary but with the right direction and foresight, with motion, you will find some balance.
Just think about a bicycle and you'll understand.
