I had this nightmare for 3 nights in a row.
I dreamt the death of my father, it was horrible, I could feel it on the skin the fact he wasn't here anymore and I had to worry about everything and even do the support guy for my mother.
Terror eating me from inside, making me run around the city to go back home to know why it happened, when it happened and how.
Waking up all sweaty, that is my nightmare for sure, because I would not be able to stand the face of my mother if that would happen for real. I don't know... feeling the weight of all things over myself it's not that good for me, I'm never been good at outsmart all the problems, I'm still young so I feel I'm not that yet ready for those issues that would popup if something bad would happen and destroy the equilibrium I apparently have.
It would destroy everything, because it would make me feel like if I failed or disappointed him.
And I don't want that. I don't wanna know that I didn't do something right in my life to make him happy.