Of course, I sympathize with all your tribulations. The only one that I can do is pray for God to comfort you. You really need May the Spirit of God give you strength in your tribulations. His spirit it will tie the advance of your natural strength. It is normal that you want to defend yourself from the problems you now face. But do not fight with your own strength.
As for the letter about your birth, I think you should give it to God. Ask for the mercy of God on him who I want to hurt you I always had the feeling that you were very sensitive about this matter.
God always attacks you in the weak point. You do not try to kill someone by hitting them where they are strongest. You have to aim at your vital organs: the bosom of life. When God aims to kill your old nature, He touches the most tender point ... the point that overflows lifetime! This is why it offers the kind of trials He gives you.
Let yourself be humiliated. If you are silent and peaceful when humiliating things happen to you, you will grow in grace. I realize that you You will be tempted to defend yourself for thousands of different reasons. But it is much better to be humbly silent. The humility that still you can talk, you have to look at it more closely. You lick too much wounds when you speak.
Do not get too upset when they say things about you. Let the speak world; it only seeks to do God's will. You will never be able to completely satisfy people, and the painful effort is not worth it. A silent peace and a sweet relationship with God will reward you for every word of evil uttered against you. Love your neighbor without waiting for their friendship. People come and go ... let them do what they like. Look to God only. He is the one that afflicts or comforts you through people and circumstances. He does it for your own benefit.
