Everyone has the right to his own atmosphere: in his head, in his heart, in his home.
Today I watched an old movie called "Dot the I". The main actress was of Spanish origin: fabulously beautiful, passionate and, as it should be, a great dancer of famous flamenco. To say it in short, it would be a real combination of her great looks, exceptional talent, wealth, and even radiating charisma. And how could such a golden nugget not fall in love with a local artist - a handsome man who lives in an already too Bohemian-decorated apartment and sips wine from teacups. Despite all the really excellent unexpected and interesting plot twists, the story ends up being happily ever after. And what else could be expected...
Sometimes you take it, and you realize how many things in life you can't, well, really can't change. I'm not talking about protruding ears, a crooked nose, or teeth that won't magically straighten out without the help of plastic surgeons, dentists, and your empty wallet, which makes you cry throughout the process. No. I mean the qualities of manner.
Not the ones that various books on spiritual development invite you to develop, but the ones... like, let's say, charisma. I think that a person either has charisma or he doesn't have it. Agree: there are some people you always wanted to be around, you never get tired of communicating with them. It seems that they don't say anything very smart, but somehow people are attracted to that person. Well, and here are the others... if you communicate with them, it's only out of necessity, for the sake of the image or because there is no other way out.
You know what's weirdest? Realize that most of the time you belong to the second group. There is no stunning appearance, no charisma, no desire to read all the self-help books to lift your spirits for at least a week. We can come up with a list of a hundred questions for ourselves: why am I so unhappy, why did this happen to me again and again, why was I born in such a poor, unhappy family, why am I not surrounded by happy people that I always wanted to attract into my life? Why, why, why? Unfortunately, no prophetic voice coming from that cloud right above your house will answer that. There are some questions in life to which there are no answers.
Therefore, it remains to learn to live with yourself. Maybe sometimes you don't dig so deep and look superficial, sometimes, after seeing some gruesome video, you think that it could be worse, and sometimes... sometimes you just have to repeat to yourself a thousand times that it won't be any other way. After all, not everyone has to move mountains in life - for some, perhaps a small dusty path is enough, which is often so difficult to walk simply because it is too simple. When a person tries to change the world, he gets the reaction of others: how wonderful, strange, dangerous, etc. it is. It is the focus, not the goal itself, that sometimes drives forward movement.
Meanwhile, walking down the path, no one will probably praise you, write about you, attract a crowd that admires you. Some of us are probably destined to endure exactly that simplicity in life - humility for the way we are in this life.
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With love, 
Photo is taken by me.
漏 2024
