I have never felt more suicidal than I do now.
Most of the days I shrug it off and pretend it isn't there. I get busy working, studying, whatever, living some distracting illusions, chasing self imposed carrots but getting nowhere
I have no purpose.
no friends.
No love. Never felt it. Don't know what it is like
No luck. NO money.
Im just another biological program, that was fucked up real good, destined to self destruct or just fucking die. No value to society. No value to anyone.
All I have is this pain. Everything I do is fucking pathetic and fails anyway. WHATS THE FUCKING POINT???
Self help is all bullshit.
Don't bother upvoting
Why should I keep trying? Tell me, please.
All I need is a spark of hope to live another day.
