"they won't allow me to attend the college , go to gym" - Just take classes online, there are tons of great courses (who really gives a shit about a college degree anyways these days (imo)). As for the gym, I miss it too sometimes, but I just work out at home now. Usually outdoors too, so that I get some vitamins at the same time I'm oxygenating. Granted, the hot bodies at the gym are missed, but most of them are typically pretty shallow anyway. Better to find yourself a nice, loyal Amish-style life-partner who isn't afraid to get dirty. Hang in there @kashmiri and just detox yourself from all that old-world stuff :)