The body knows more than we give it credit for. Don't be too hard on yourself for not being vocal enough - even the bravest, loudest folks become quite tame and submissive in hospital. It's a psychological thing, the patient mentality. As for the doctors, I'm personally extremely skeptical of the medical system. That being said, my best friend is a doctor. They're just cogs in a machine and frustrated because our government seems to care little for healthcare, doesn't give them enough money, tools, etc.

So sorry to hear what you are going through, Mary. May God be with you. You were very wise not to do that third chemo session. And on a more humble note, can I ask, as Aces did, have you considered alternative approaches?

If I could give you a word of advice, as my family has also been battling with breast cancer this past year, it would be follow your heart and don't downplay the power of thought - if you believe something will help you, that has immense healing power. Whereas, if you are going into a treatment (any treatment) doubtful, that also has weight.

May you have a full and speedy recovery. <3