In a world full of people with different mindsets and ideologies, one needs to live by certain rules in order to cope. Sometimes those rules might build our relationships with people, other times they will chase them away but it's life we just have to keep going.
I am a very young boy but I have had experiences that made my mind older than I am. One thing I discovered with people while growing up is most of them are fake and also always want to act smart. If one is not careful enough he/she can waste his time, resources, and energy on people thinking they are his loved ones not knowing you mean just little if not nothing to them.
I have had that encounter several times, I had friends whom I thought were like brothers to me but the moment I withdrew the energy I was putting in the friendship, suddenly it died off.
I also had relationships like that, I thought I found love, I was just doing all I could to ensure it worked out not knowing that I was dissipating my energy for nothing.
I got hurt many times, I felt betrayed a million times and it transformed me into a new personality. I got feed up on trying to always be the nice guy and be the one always putting the effort. It made me look stupid before my eyes like I was forcing people to myself.
I know my transformation is affecting some people negatively for what they don't know but I think it's best that way. Right now, I don't care whether a person is my brother or my sister. I have one simple principle, "The way you treat me is what will tell how I will relate with you."
Even if you are a total stranger and you seem to respect me and show me care, I'll shower love on you and make you feel like my own blood and on the other hand, even if you are my sibling and you treat me like a piece of trash, that's how I'll treat you.
My attitude is based on how you treat me. I was talking to one of my friends recently and he was telling me how that a guy told him he dislikes me. That I don't smile or act friendly he wondered how my friend relates with me.
I begged him to tell me the boy's name and he did, I remember what transpired between us. I once tried acting nice towards the guy and he gave me a cold shoulder and since then, I just decided to mind my business. I didn't know he was affected.
I know people are going through one challenge or the other but it costs nothing to share a smile with another person and exchange greetings. Well, I am not Mr nice guy anymore. If you discovered i am being suddenly caring and loving towards you, trust me, it's a by product of how you are treating me.
When you call, I'll call, when you stop, I'll stop. If you check up on me, I'll do the same and if you choose to stop, I'll withdraw as well. I have better things to do with my time and energy than to force relationships out of people, it's so exhausting.
But let me put something right, I am not saying If you do me evil I'll pay you back with that evil, far from that, paying back evil for evil, is even more exhausting than forcing myself on people.
