Our television is no longer the main form of entertainment in our house as we now have an access to the Internet. For me my access to the web is so important because this is the place where I can earn a bit of money that I can use for my necessities.
Had it not been for the internet I could have died a long time ago because of my need to support myself medically with medicines and paying-up hospital bills and such.
Before the new year for example I experienced a sharp pain on my right side under the belly button area. I never had thought that it was from a burst Appendix, my appendix had bursted already before I was able to get operated on.
Fortunately I still had some funds left and that I used to patch to pay for my medical bills. It was not a very inexpensive procedure because it was indeed expensive. Had I not have some money then even my family would not care to bridge my life because I think for them I am just a bad investment.
My eldest brother didn't even give a dollar worth and it hurts my feelings that is why I will never ask help from him. Anyway he is not even obligated to help me, none of my family members are which is why I wanted to get financially freed so that I can save my family the trouble of letting their minds to think of me.
That is why I sometimes feel alone especially if my parents are not around anymore because in these vulnerable times of my life I am needing mental support and all the prayers in the world because obviously my case and situation is somewhat hopeless even though I believe that there is still hope to at least make my life better with some improvement.
I am still longing for a much better improvement, life is still beautiful even though most odds are against me but I am choosing to carry-on with my life and never lose hope especially if God is in my side then everything can be possible.