I’ve had a hard time deciding whether or not I should write this. It is easy, particularly online, to feel separated from people. At least for me, that feeling of isolation usually leads to closing myself off from the world when I feel the most vulnerable.
I don't want to do that this time.
So here goes everything. The last few weeks have been an absolute mess. Long story short, I went from having somewhere to live to not having somewhere to live in the span of an hour. I’ll spare you the sordid details of how this came to be (I don’t like throwing people under the bus on public forums and that’s what my side of the story is likely to amount to) but needless to say it was very stressful.
My boyfriend and I had some quick decisions to make. Technically my first decision was whether or not to stay with him or go home to my parents, but that didn’t feel like a decision at all. I’m stubborn by nature and when I say “I like you and want to work on building a life together,” I mean it. If anything, the rough waters have only made us a stronger couple.
Second, we had to figure out where in the world we were going to sleep that night. Our car was sadly out of commission so we decided to walk to the closest hotel (3 miles, but a lovely stranger drove us half the distance) and hope they had an opening. They did not. In fact, no one in town had an opening. The closest hotel was well outside of what was realistic to walk (at least for me) so we called a cab (by some horrid twist of fate my phone refused to connect to the servers for both uber and lyft.)
We fixed the car. Until it broke again. So we fixed it… and it broke again. And basically lather, rinse, repeat that a few hundred times and you get the idea. The kicker? I’m a pizza delivery driver. Or at least I was. Hard to deliver pizzas in a car that breaks down when you look at it wrong. We’ve gotten stuck on the side of one road or another way to many times the past few weeks.
As you can imagine, living in hotels is not something we could sustain for long. We were hemorrhaging money while looking for a place to rent. But then, wonder of wonders an old friend of my boyfriend's offered us a place to stay! We’ve been recuperating here as well as helping him fix the place up a little.
But then today, in case we thought the universe was giving us a breather, someone broke into our car! They tried to hotwire it but because the battery was faulty we had taken it out to charge it upstairs. I suppose in that way yesterday's bad luck became today's good luck :p We still have a car, we just have to add broken window to the list of repairs.
But despite all that we’re doing all right. It’s a lot to deal with, but we’ve learned a lot about how we function as a team. I’ve learned a lot about myself and how I react under pressure. It’s all an experience, and for now we’re simply taking it one day at a time.
But hopefully that explains my prolonged absence for anyone that was curious. Now that I have reliable access to internet again, I will more than likely go back to regular posting. Now more than ever I value the ability to create things and share them with other people, so you can be sure that if I can find the time I will continue to write.
If you took the time to read this thank you very much <3
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