Wish you steady recovery and patience with it. And talking about patience I can tell you the hunt for the perfect land in the mountains (at least in my mind)... which in my case took about 2 years of research, driving with the car and searching. I found it, had big dreams, but reality hit that it was too much for me to start from zero. So I adapted, now I am selling it and planning to downscale (it has 4000 sqm) or simply buy one with a small house on it.

It is important for us to be able to adapt and accept that as a normal thing and not a failure.