I'm very glad that you still have your brain and that writing and thinking isn't causing you any pain. And that you share that with us,I appreciate that.

My mom once got to the point where she joined an organization in Switzerland that offers assisted suicide. It was when she was at her worst, and didn't know how much meds she would have to take, and how that would affect her. So, she decided it was good to have that back-up plan. When she wasn't able to enjoy life anymore, but survive behind a foggy curtain of pain meds, she would go peacefully. That was 20 years ago. It never came to it. I think just having the option set up was enough to make her endure, and thankfully she found a way to handle her pain well, between opiates, cannabis, acupuncture, choir singing, listening to her body more, organizing her energy well and what not. I learned a lot from how she handled things.

I wish you all the best for your course, truly.