I'm sobbing as I read that. I'm trying very hard to let it all flow, but everything just seems to keep accumulating. There's not much I can let go anymore. The idea of Lily returning soon? Gone already. The idea of officials actually doing their job? Gone. I know it's going to take a long time and effort, I'm fine with that. But the pain just stays. In the background, but constant. And I'm of course not willing to let go of the idea of being reunited with Lily at all. That would be the last to let go off.

As for therapy, I did so many stuff. I love psychology, the right therapist can do wonders. I did indigenous ceremonies, with medicine and without, TCM too, philosophy of course as auto-therapy. Equine therapy was awesome, too. Ellie does family constellation and stuff like that. There's a path forward for everyone, we just have to find the right method.